Nightmares & Dreams

I used to have regular nightmares. I was in school. Probably in 5th grade. I used to dream of scary demons chasing me. I used to try to run, but couldn't take a step; my legs used to feel like stone. And most of those nightmares used to end up with me wetting my bed. 

While awake, I was never scared. I wasn't scared of demons or ghosts, nothing. It was just those dreams. And a wet bed. Sometimes I used to get away, sometimes I used to get caught. I was always street smart enough to get away. But on the days I used to get caught, I was always too embarrassed to say - I saw a demon, and that thing chased me. And there were 2nd kinds of dreams too, that used to feel like reality. Me going out to pee in the dream while I was still in bed. And something hot and cold used to break the illusion. 

My lower primary school had classes till the 4th grade, 5th grade was a new school. School was barely 200 meters from home. I used to consider that I had graduated from one school, I couldn't be peeing on my bed. I had to find a solution. I said I was street smart, I am still, but I am just lazy. I am more lazy this year. Not having a plan has spoiled me; at the same time, I know it is a take-it-easy year. I have become a bit more take it easy than I would have liked, but I am not judging this year.

Back to fixing the thing. Do you remember, I mentioned there were two kinds of dreams leading to a wet bed? Well, the one where it used to look real, and I used to feel like peeing outside, those were the ones that eventually helped me figure out the fix. I used to wake up in the middle of these dreams, with the hot pee touching the bed and parts of my body. I started being conscious, if I am peing, how fast can I realise? This helped. This led me to fix the problem and something even more beautiful. I started experiencing Lucid dreams. These are dreams, but the dreamer knows it is a dream, and they build the story for the dream. I started knowing I was in a dream. When nightmares came, when a demon attacked, when I couldn't run, I started flying.

Sleep was so fun. It was like an immersive 360-degree experience, where I had complete control over myself and anything that I liked. Mostly, I used lucid dreams to summon and fight demons, and go on adventures. And fly, who doesn't like flying? 

Why am I writing this? I recently saw a YouTube video on Lucid dreaming and techniques. That's the first time I've heard the term. They are discussing the technique, I kid's version had self-discovered this on their own. For a lot of our problems, answers are within; we just need to look closely. Not saying every problem has a solution, and every solution is within, or every solution within is the best, I am not saying that. But if you look deep enough, look deep without problems ideally, you will find so many answers. 

Big question, have I still got it? Yes, I can tell if I am in a dream, in any bad dream. But going into a dream of my own story, there are more struggles these days. I didn't have a lot of REM sleep in the last few years. Most of my dreams are during naps instead. I am more of a daydreamer these days 😂. Those nightmares and Lucid dreams have shaped my reality and imagination for life. I could fight any demons, with unlimited superpower at my wish. Flying is still the best.