Random monologue on manifestation

It is an absolutely nonsensical, crazy piece. Read at your own risk. I am just journaling. 

I have mentioned many times to people that I manifest good energy for myself. It is very true. I feel I have manifested many things, many moments. All good. Mostly good. The 23rd of December 2025 sparked a different thought. Capturing it here, in case I come to this again. 

I saw an accident while returning from cricket practice. I helped the victim to the hospital. He is fine now. If I do any manifestation, I manifest good things, I manifest being good, being useful, I manifest being resourceful. I manifest being helpful. Hear me out, if I am manifesting my reality, is there a possibility I am manifesting these scenes subconsciously, so I can be helpful?

I prefer enablement over on-demand help. But even then, there is a feeling of being useful in being helpful. This is more reactive, low-hanging than enablement. Success in helping is more controlled, more defined. Many factors go out of hand in enablement. 

Sounds like borderline craziness. But let's not think I will be helpful. I shall still be open to help. Not seeking to help. Would this change no of scenes I see? If it doesn't, would it be because I will manifest less, or would it be because my body will somehow give it away?

Cray! Good that I don't do this actively, all happens unconsciously, and I just get a spark for a second. Usually, they are useful. Sometimes they are as crazy as this. Again, good that nothing is active. Almost like I can give instructions to unconsciousness and it executes. So I can be somewhat sane actively. 

Time to hit the bed. Exciting days. I am in a PTO and doing fun stuff.